Lil Nas X won Male Artist of the Year during Tuesday nightâs iHeartMusic Awards During his acceptance speech he spoke about being, âdelusional,â and that itâs okay and sometimes necessary to be delusional. âI wouldnât be where I am right now, in my life and my career, if I werenât delusional. Believing I could drop out of school and become an international success within a year. Itâs delusional,â said Lil Nas. âBelieving that I could come out of the closet in the height of my career⊠to think that I could do that would be delusional!â he continued as the crowd cheered. ââŠin a world where itâs still legal in many places to be prosecuted and actually killed for being who you are, being gay. Itâs delusional to think that song could be the number one song in the world.â